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Monday, August 31, 2009

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 09:41:34 GMT

Psalms 142: 3-4

³ When my spirit grows faint within me,
       it is you who know my way.
       In the path where I walk
       men have hidden a snare for me.

⁴ Look to my right and see;
       no one is concerned for me.
       I have no refuge;
       no one cares for my life.

Lose direction, in work, at church, and it seems to be a mess everywhere. I want to get out from there, but am stuck in the middle of nowhere.

Sadly to say, no one is concerned, I have no refuge, and no one cares for my life.

Perhaps the reason why I am there every week is: to work, to work and to work. I don't need another place to work, Mon - Fri is more than enough. Don't stop me and just ask, 'If you can help me...', 'Will you do this...'. There are far too many people there, but too few of them are really here.

Perhaps You know my way, but at least until today, I don't have an answer, from You.

If I am there because of responsbilities, I preferred being regarded as a 'Runaway person', than to be an 'everything seems fine workaholic'.

Monday, June 22, 2009

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 12:43:00 GMT

王子悠長的假期終於結束了，今天，他重新上路了，我們要再次適應一下。

回來六個月(我們是12月21日回到香港的)，有時想起英國的日子，也非常懷念。雖然看似很缺乏，今日在計著有多少「磅」剩，但那段無憂無慮、相依為命、天天與朋友一起生活的日子，卻是最單純、最快樂的。很想念每一個在他鄉的朋友(英國、新加坡、澳洲、韓國、Zambia、Zimbabwee、加拿大、西班牙、印度(我可愛的小朋友)、美國)。

不知道會否再起行，不過今次可能不是幾個月，是更長的時間。

要再次開次中午的禱告時間，想更明白約瑟的呼召，想知道下一站是哪兒。

Thursday, June 04, 2009

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 14:15:46 GMT

See if you can identify some of the models?

The new The Marriage Course materials are out!

Monday, May 11, 2009

Mon, 11 May 2009 13:13:45 GMT

「約瑟」的呼召...

The last week

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 01:25:01 GMT

My honeymoon year will end in a week, and will be terribly busy starting in April.

Learning to Wait

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 02:39:03 GMT

An excerpt from 'If you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat' by John Ortberg

Waiting is our destiny as creatures who cannot by themselves bring about what they hope for.
We wait in the darkness for a flame we cannot light.
We wait in fear for a happy ending we cannot write.
We wait for a not yet that feels like a not ever.
Waiting is the hardest work of hope.

The ability to wait well is a test of maturity. Psychologists speak of this as the ability to endure delayed gratification. M. Scott Peck writes, 'Delaying gratification is a process of scheduling the pain and pleasure of life in such a way as to enhance the pleasure by meeting and experiencing the pain first and getting it over with. It is the only decent way to live.'

Waiting on the Lord is a confident, disciplined, expectant, active and sometimes painful clinging to God.
Waiting on the Lord is the continual, daily decision to say, 'I will trust you, and I will obey you. Even though the circumstances of my life are not turning out the way I want them to, and may never turn out the way I would choose, I am betting everything on you. I have no plan B.'

Waiting requires patient trust - trust that is willing to wait again and again day after day.
Waiting requires confident humility.
Waiting requires inextinguishable hope.

Even youths will faint and be weary,
and the young will fall exhausted;
but those who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength,
they shall mount up with wings like eagles,
they shall run and not be weary,
they shall walk and not faint.

Sometimes in your life you will be in an era of spiritual soaring. Be very grateful. Do all you can to stay in the stream of the Spirit's power.

Somes we are not soaring, but we are able to run and not grow weary. You feel frustration, but you also feel God's pleasure in your obedience. Do not try to manufacture spiritual ecstasy. Do not compare yourself with someone who is soaring right now. Your time will come. Just keep running.

Sometimes we will not be soaring, and we cannot run. In those times all we can do is walk and not faint.. It is a hard thing to be a walker when you are surrounded by racers and eagles. But sometimes walking is the best we can offer God. he understands all about that. Walking counts, too.

Keep walking, because what we wait for is not more important than what happens to us while we are waiting.

Now it is just a matter of time.

Sinking heart

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 07:45:47 GMT

Hope got Peter out of the boat.
Trust held him up.
Fear sank him.

Hope is believing: The best is yet to come.

Our Daily Bread

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 01:42:25 GMT

Idols in the heart
When my husband and I first went out as missionaries, I recall being concerned about the growth of materialism in our society. It never crossed my mind that I myself could be materialistic. After all, hadn't we gone overseas with almost nothing? Weren't we choosing to live a shabbily furnished, rundown aprtment? I thought materialism couldn't touch us. Nonetheless, feelings of discontent gradually began to take root in my heart. Before long I was craving hungrily after nice things and secretly feeling resentful over not having them.

Then one day God's Spirit opened my eyes with a distrubing insight: Materialism isn't necessarily having things; it can also be craving them. There I stood - guilty of materialism! God had exposed my discontent for what it was - an idol in my heart! ...

I remember twice when my heart was trouble with money, and I was desperate as I found that I am not good at earning more, or at least, like most people, know how to grow their weath, God said to me, ' Don't be troubled by these trash, for Me, have a greater calling in our life.' Burst into tears, I said to myself, 'Yes, I shouldn't keep craving for possession, knowing that my life isn't for that.' However, discontentment keeps gaining grounds in my heart, and until one day, I am so troubled by not having more again.

I feel so hopeless when it comes to sacrificing myself, and look to God. Thanks God, the one who understands our weaknesses, not leaving off to take me back.

May my heart finds real contentment in Him, and I can said, 'The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.'

Perseverance

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 06:04:25 GMT

It's a hard thing to learn.

Today I am so moodless, that even my favourite 'energy-booster' (chocolates) fail to cheer me up.

1st anniversary

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 14:23:56 GMT

We bought each other the same card!! haha...

Very nice dinner, really full.

I can't believe this year has past so quickly!